Ravings of an Undead Cheese Minion

A few observations:  attacks happen seemingly constantly . It's almost too much in my opinion -- there is very little breathing room -- but I tend to have the exact opposite problem; too much  breathing room. So, it is good to study this.  When POV characters are attacked, it is seemingly random... ...but it very much is not actually random . Cannon's villains have already all devised their own plans and are executing them. The main cast pieces those plans together as they go.  Whenever my stories were starting to feel slow and clogged, I instantly went "yeah...make something blow up" which is fine  as an instinct, but the attacks were feeling disjointed.  I'm more of a plotter than a pantser, so I am now going back to the drawing board. The antagonist's plans need to be fully defined and executed so that way everything starts to connect.  I will say that the books do tend to weaken slightly in what is effectively this series' "war chapters" (tha...

There are way too many games I want to play.  My parents never explicitly forbade video games, but they did limit our hours severely.  By the time they stopped, I had accidentally developed an irrational guilt complex over playing games, even though my logical brain knew it was stupid. So it was hard to sit down and just do it  even though I knew it would make me more creative.  when I played adastra in 2021 I somehow managed to break through and play for at least 30 minutes a day, but usually 1-2 hours. This was extremely effective for immersion. I LIVED in that world.  So I am going to allow myself to do the following:  Backlog and sandbox games on the weekend. pokemon, portal, donut county, halo, skyrim, mass effect, dream logic, cattails, VR with Orion Drift and Dungeons of Eternity, etc. Replaying vns is allowed also. I realize this means it will take forever to get through them  But pretty much every day I want to be in: Genshin Impact and BG3. Y...

But ONLY this one I finally GET it. That was really good. A few parts that threw me off plot-wise, but excellent characters and animation.

YOU WILL NOT BREAK ME  YOU WILL NOT BREAK ME  FUCK YOU ALL.  Third layoff. Every single full-time job I've had, I've lost.  I've never liked life very much and I often wonder why I was even born here. I don't feel like I've done much. I don't really enjoy it. I love what I do, sure, but the sadness is always there. I don't like the scaffolding.  And when something like this happens, it's very easy to spiral into those old, comforting thoughts that i've had ever since I was a teen. They came up countless times then. They came up again when Sling laid me off. And then again when DreamWorks laid me off. What's the point? What if I just gave up? Threw in the towel? Fuck this world, I've always hated it, I never asked to be born.  Under the arches of moonlight and sky, Suddenly easy to contemplate, why?  Why live a life That's painted with pity and sadness and strife?  Why dream a dream  That's tainted with trouble and less than it seems? ...

Do not over-rely on AI. bad choice, bad choice, BAD CHOICE. Case in point: They make stuff up :D :D :D 

Not to be dramatic, but: When I got laid off from DreamWorks, I thought that I had lost everything. I was just going to stay there forever, while building my own creative career on the side. When I was laid off, that plan was ruined. I lost momentum completely. I limped to the finish line of my CS master's. I did not publish any papers. My final project had an error in the physics equations. I got a new job that was not animation and despite my love for coding, I just could not get my heart into it and I wasn't sure why. For a long time, I went through the motions to pay the bills and that was it. I was not consistent at practicing art, 2D or 3D, and my skills were severely lagging behind. I was not able to move to California as planned. I was not submitting to writing group. In fact, the only thing I was really consistent at was exercise.  Finally I woke up. I had to build something non-negotiable via daily automatic practice blocks that were just as important and unskippable ...