Ravings of an Undead Cheese Minion

quick work break to mention that I finally have a kali distro installed again, as of this morning:  I want to be a pentester, a software engineer, a technical artist/director, a graphics programmer, and an embedded engineer, all at the same time.  (Oh and a novelist and illustrator with a longform narrative graphic novel style webcomic) No, it doesn't make sense, but when you can't choose, you simply do all of them. I thought the "sacrifice to live this kind of life" that Straight Line Stitch mentioned was about giving up something that I love, or sleep, but no. It's none of that. It's just being stressed and realizing that you may not progress as  fast as monomaths but I've also been surprising myself.  Anyway, back to work. And getting FanX tickets at noon....if they don't sell out. 

Like dang.  I didn't get all the food I wanted, but I did do a lot of attractions and I got a decent amount of snacks. It's hard with such a short season.  206 days until water parks open. A little bit less for roller coasters in the state. Of course we don't have Lagoon's 2027 schedule yet.  I had better accomplish a lot. 

I totally zoned in my Strava race report for the Haunted Half that a bunch of horses were galloping beside us in mile 1. That was AWESOME

I've got a time to rest soon. Once theme parks are closed I can just focus on my indoor goals and make a ton of headway. 207 days until summertime, with memorial day.  So, I'm frustrated. The melancholy is hitting hard. I'll still work out but I've lost time. It always does this. Every year like clockwork. 

 ...I might just pay for a plane.  I don't know yet.  but when your sibling says "i'm probably not going to thanksgiving. 99% sure" and then DOESN'T TELL ANYONE, and then you have to act like you're going WITH him when talking to parents... i'm tired of this. I am under no obligation to keep lying for someone else's cover up story. i'm not going to do it anymore. 

They are starting to drive me insane. How is there a sync conflict today, when I didn't open Scrivener on any other device today, yesterday, OR Wednesday?  unironically might just start writing in a code tool, I'm not sure