Ravings of an Undead Cheese Minion

I totally zoned in my Strava race report for the Haunted Half that a bunch of horses were galloping beside us in mile 1. That was AWESOME

I've got a time to rest soon. Once theme parks are closed I can just focus on my indoor goals and make a ton of headway. 207 days until summertime, with memorial day.  So, I'm frustrated. The melancholy is hitting hard. I'll still work out but I've lost time. It always does this. Every year like clockwork. 

 ...I might just pay for a plane.  I don't know yet.  but when your sibling says "i'm probably not going to thanksgiving. 99% sure" and then DOESN'T TELL ANYONE, and then you have to act like you're going WITH him when talking to parents... i'm tired of this. I am under no obligation to keep lying for someone else's cover up story. i'm not going to do it anymore. 

They are starting to drive me insane. How is there a sync conflict today, when I didn't open Scrivener on any other device today, yesterday, OR Wednesday?  unironically might just start writing in a code tool, I'm not sure

specifically my dad, who said "if your current novel isn't working, you need to drop it and start a new one"  LOL. As if doing that for like 10 years isn't a huge part of the reason why I'm still not ready to be published yet.  "You've been writing for so long and still aren't published yet"  Again, see above. You think I WANT to be here right now? It's like when they give me crap for being single -- do you think I WANT to be? The way they intonate and inflect, this is what it appears they are trying to insinuate.  I am writing this here, because some people in this world cannot be reasoned with, no matter how hard you try -- at the risk of sounding cliche, it's like talking to a brick wall.  But the real thing is -- I HAVE TO have multiple screw-ups in my writing.  It's impossible NOT TO, for 99% of people.  I accidentally made it to part 3 of Eternisummer, FINALLY, and I am not confident in this novel at all . I love the premise and...

I'd sure like to deploy to dev and do some smoke testing so I can yeet my ticket to the next column. I can't do that, though.  This platform is slowly enshittifying. Microslop is slopping as usual. Of course, Windows is still the best OS for gaming and PC building, so we're going to stay in the abusive relationship with Microslop for now. Macbooks for laptops all the way, though. 

and maybe less venting to llms, but that's another topic. seriously, I have the lowest token usage on my team and I still feel like I'm rotting my brain and I am done. I am trying to phase it out as much as I can, minus maybe some safety-net stuff. but it will not be perfect.  kind of ironic -- devs will crap on you for not using AI, artists will crap on you for using it, and I'm both.  It was easy to not use AI for writing and art, because that's just stupid. Why would I need that? but in CS, it was so normalized. I always refused to "vibe code", and I refuse to use that term without putting it in quotes because of how dumb it is. but even so, i was getting too reliant on these big AI companies. i've got half a mind to just become a C guy or something to swing in the total opposite direction and go total low level, but that's easier said than done. plus, C++ makes more sense for me individually in the graphics realm. C maybe if i pivot more towards th...

We've reached depths of autism that even I didn't think were possible (WE'RE, not were, apple intelligence sucks, I need to turn it off) I think I've listened to this song maybe 40 times since I heard it on my drive home on Sunday. I can't stop. It's like an auditory stim, even though it hits me with a profound wave of sadness every time.  It also makes me want to push even harder, because I'm terrified of running out of time, and I have to make all of this happen before it's over. And I may not do drugs, but there's plenty of drug-free ways to calm yourself down, that still aren't really healthy.  And they said it's fool's gold, it's got a hold I'm dying here Lovers talk, late at night, doing drugs to ease my mind I'm not all right  https://genius.com/Buffalo-traffic-jam-fools-gold-lyrics

okay, not the only one , but it often feels like I'm the only one who cares.  writing group? everyone quit except me.  comic con? I'm always the one who gets the tickets, who researches how the queueing system works in order to game it properly, I want to go more days while others want to go less or not at all.  people always tell me to tone it down, to chill out, to stop doing so much, and I don't understand why.  i never will. that's why my reddit bio has that quote from One Project, "Turn up the volume and let out the rage."  turn it up. when everyone else tones down, go all in. if anyone reading this is like me. i don't understand the lack of passion. it's confusing to me. why does nobody care?  so smile for the camera, put on a show, if you try to drag me down, then down you will go

Inoculation, aw yiss.  My hypothesis was correct. According to Cornbellys signage, Spookyville MAY have actors after 7 pm on nights with Frightbellys.  I went through Buried Alive and it wasn't staffed, but the adrenaline was amped after reading that.  I also went to the very entrance of the Frightbellys hay maze itself. Saw a scare. Creepy clown dude going after a group.  Right at or after 7 pm seems like the perfect time. They're getting into position. Or, right before! Hell, I think they didn't close the mazes the day OF Frightbellys, as opposed to other days. So, I could probably solo at the haunt maze at like....6:50. Perfect. Ride the edge.  Of course, GP season is in full swing. But, what are you gonna do. It's peak fall now.  Overall - Hell yes. This is the good gradual way to get myself into solo haunting. I will be doing more of this. As Tampa Jay says, haunts on. 

I never used AI for art or writing, except when Dalle-2 first came out (this was well before anyone outside of graduate level computer scientists even had access to it) where I generated like 1-2 images and went "nice, anyway, back to CtrlPaint". I've always hated AI-generated images, minus that first exploratory period, once the techbros got wind and tried to get rid of artists. No. Screw that. Lol.  I used it for coding sometimes, but then realized it was making me weaker. I always refused "vibe coding". That term sounds extremely stupid because it is, in fact, an extremely stupid practice. Instead, I tried to use AI while understanding what it was doing and being the primary driver. But then I decided to try and go "AI-minimal" on code. I only used it if I was stuck on a physics formula or something that was difficult to source.  But at work, I was still using it too much. Sure, we have copilot licenses, but how much was I actually learning? We can ...

Instead of starting the gym between 5 and 5:15 am like I used to, I've been getting there closer to 6 on WFH days. This means I often pansy out on lifting at the rec center gym, and go to my tiny apartment gym instead, and then I have to rush and cut out sets regardless of which gym I choose.  I think this is simple. The two in office days cause some overflow, but in reality, I simply ADHD my way out of about 45 minutes after work, which pushes writing, art, and code too late, and sometimes I hyperfixate on one of them, then I don't shut down by 8 pm as planned, and don't get to bed by 9 or 9:15 to be up by 4 or 4:15. This didn't happen before because my last job forced an 8 am start (which sucked. Let's be real) and my previous job, I did not have a solid writing/art/code routine yet.  This is getting annoying. Then, half the time I have to make an extra restroom trip or something.  It cascades. Late work start causes the rest.  Proposed solution: I NEED to start w...

It's so depressing driving by that abandoned place. I never went to Evermore. It billed itself as a fantasy theme park. Lol. I love fantasy, I love cons, I love theme parks, and I never ended up going. It wasn't a theme park.  No rides. Except the train, which according to Jenny Nicholson was, well, as poorly run as the rest of the park. You cannot have a theme park without any rides.  It's a place built for the hyper-extroverted, zero social anxiety brand of Utah nerd, who is fine going up to random people and talking to them, since that's what you were required to do, in order to get anything out of the space. I read this and went AW HELL NAH and then didn't go 😬 and then it closed.  I would love a dragonsteel village expansion and bookstore. Brandon has built such a cool empire. Sure, it would be nice to actually have rides there, but that was never going to happen. The suburban GP of Pleasant Grove absolutely would not allow it. Too noisy for their peaceful bed...

1. buy domain on porkbun 2. register an account on cloudflare (I just used GitHub) 3. you can just create your astro project using  the cloudflare howto , but make sure that your node and npm are up to date. i had to update node on windows by a manual re-download then update npm via git bash right after.  4. create a git repo and connect it to the astro project, run the astro project and make sure it shows up on localhost 5.  follow this , but delete any DNS records that redirect you to porkbun too, in addition to the steps they give you. you can do it before or after, but you have to do it. porkbun redirected me to an uixie.porkbun url and a 207.x series of IP addresses, which is what takes you to the default "hey this website exists" porkbun landing page. these were A records and CNAME records and I had to nuke them into the sun so cloudflare would regenerate them properly. (it also feels super illegal to delete the porkbun nameservers to replace them with daddy cloudfl...

Dwordle is dead it seems, and I don't have the energy for symble, at least not right now. But metazooa is back in the rotation because I miss playing it and dropping results in zulip. That and my signout message of 🌊 in slack. Little things that make me feel like I'm still there, making movies and planning to never leave.  I wasn't even the one who dropped the 🌊 at dwa, but I do it now.  So now we have wordle, strands, globle, parkle, and metazooa in the daily puzzleslop rotation. 

Life is the impact of a falling brick wall of rain Coming down on your long walk home, when your thoughts are sobering... life is your consciousness, as you tame your wild beasts, where exhaustion is the currency that you must pay for sleep  thanks david.

The world is nothing Disguised as something it is not  Aspire to be something, Appearing as you really are - Woods of Ypres

Not my job, mind you. My job is fun and altogether pretty cash money. I like it.  I need to complain about CS communities for just a brief moment.  Everything is either  AI doom Only caring about money and stocks and boring shit like that  Can't find a job AAAAA  Working 65 hours a week for some reason  VIBE CODING IS THE FUTURE (🖕) People thinking using any AI is "vibe coding"  Nobody codes for fun, or if they do it's vibe coded slop. SLOP SLOP SLOP 🐷🐷🐷🐖🐽 Do any of these people actually LIKE PROGRAMMING? Who are you and what the hell did you do with my nerdy little field? Go away.  No seriously. I thought vibe coding was a joke. You can't be serious, right? Like you're taking the precise art of computer science and making it stochastic, and explictly not trying to understand what is happening? That's part of the definition btw. Trying not to understand. It's the antithesis of why I code.  From slop thou wast born, slop thou doth produc...

Blogger on mobile is broken. I can't upload photos and I don't think it's due to space. I need to figure out wtf is going on. However.  My alarm went off this morning and I realized I really needed to pee, which is rare for me. I usually wake up to pee 2-4 times a night, more if it's a Saturday night and I'm sleeping in. So I don't usually have to pee when I wake up for real, as the last one is usually an hour before the alarm. In fact, I didn't remember waking up at all.  My watch mostly confirms this. It claims I was awake from 10:14-10:18 pm and that's it. I definitely do not remember this, either. I think I was not fully awake. Or, that might've been when I got up to get something out of my eye, but I think that one was before I actually fell asleep.  I've only had this happen one other time in my life that I remember. It was weird, I closed my eyes as a kid, woke up and it was Easter somehow.  I guess it also happened when I was knocked out ...

...this is their last year?  I'm not doing challenges where people quit hosting them. I cannot stand quitting. If I commit to something, I commit forever . But if that something quits on me , it's done. It's over. It's why I've not checked my old writing group's discord for months. Because they quit on me.  Guess I'm just going to stick with the Loish challenge instead. 

open ( __import__ ( 'sys' ).argv[ 2 ], 'w' ).write( open ( __import__ ( 'sys' ).argv[ 1 ]).read()) OH YEAH "I'm awesome, and I [love] dolphins" - Tyler the Creator

https://blenderartists.org/t/sakura/1652235 Beautiful.  Also a&a is back up

I tried moving music to post-work for 30 minutes for a few weeks because I don't have a lunch break now due to being hourly, unless I want to work later, which I don't.  It didn't work. It was killing WAC (Writing, Art, Code) by making them too short. It does, however, work well as a backup, and a goal for in office days.  But each instrument only takes 15 minutes, so I could move them into two breaks with modified Pomodoro instead. This might suck though. Even so, only getting 30-40 minutes of each WAC practice was killing me. 

never heard of all these tiny websites that look like they're straight out of 2010 deviantart and everyone is both a coder and an artist, until yesterday... no vibe coding in sight.  i think i'm going to base my portfolio site revamp loosely off of this. it'll be less of a portfolio and more of a homepage that happens to be portfolio-adjacent. let's be real, who cares about impressing some lame recruiters? the work should speak for itself.  i'm still going to use actual web tech though, i don't want to be so minimalist like i'm a feralfront user in 2012 customizing profiles with copy/pasted javascript to make a grumpy cat mouse  i mean i do , but i also want to use my degree :p

1. The "Grand Quint" for games and film: Writing/Worlds, Art, Coding, IT, and Music 2. TPED: Theme Park Engineering and Design  3. Working out: Running, Lifting, and [whatever you are supposed to call "yoga, prehab, vibration plate, and balance board stuff"] ...maybe Motor? Ew. 

  Refreshed myself on how to do the abc export from Unity to Houdini.  Now need to re-import.  But before I can really consider this done, I want to review the math. In depth.  It's also time to contribute to some OSS. Moonray, for one. It will take a lot of work and it will be worth it.  btw state fair still slaps but no single riders allowed on Mach 1 (their Speed replacement)

again I've used this name before, and didn't quite get where I wanted to, but we're going to try again. This is from now until Thanksgiving  FUN ACTIVITIES  Lagoon, including Frightmares = regular, with pass Cornbellys, including Frightbellys and Scaryville = regular, with pass Aquarium  = regular, with pass, renew pass before November Utah State Fair = this weekend  Water Slides: Outdoor = season done, all outdoor parks closed :( Indoor = season begins, don't forget to do them even with fall fairs in the mix  Kuwahara Wholesale: Pick a day and commit to it.  Ricochet Canyon and Liberty Park: Useful for later November; optional.  FanX: Saturday pass already bought.  Hogle Zoo: only once because their season pass is for chumps.  FITNESS Outdoor Swimming: Pool open at least through September 28th Leaf Walks: Don't skip September; the cool transition of the trees is fascinating to watch.  5K through Marathon training and racing (Curren...

Because I am somewhat in withdrawal from Disney, having not gone to any Disney property since April 😛 I miss Orlando. I know marathon weekend may still be cold, but I still yearn for early morning taper runs along the all-star sports path, spending all day lost in another world, and nights at Disney springs, universal citywalk, and funspot. Who knows, maybe I'll get a funspot pass just so I can ride white lightning every night. Probably not. But you never know.  I should like to fall asleep to the hum of the AC in a cozy all-star sports room after walking along through the swamp on a quick post-dinner walk. The End Zone food court never disappoints.  My only thing is that I wish I was doing a full Universal day but sometimes you just have to go full-blown Disney, no apologies, no regrets. We will see. Maybe I will sneak something in somehow. 

So yeah, opening weekend may have just been worse than I expected, but the second weekend made up for it.  Cornbellys was pretty chill at around 12:45 pm yesterday. No one was there. Football game, maybe, combined with it being a hotter day. Got the pre season experience.  Pros of being injured I guess, if I did Big Cottonwood today I wouldn't have been there so early (or gotten my piece of Jet Star 2)  Nice fall preview! Felt early! There was a calm satisfaction that there are so many run days ahead before winter I where. Like: "hey, we are getting a preview of fall now, but it's still summer!" Then I went to Cherry Hill for closing day and lost myself in the summertime. 

Opening day at Cornbelly's wasn't blazing hot, quiet, devoid of people, and still feeling like midsummer, sweating profusely in a hot cornfield with a cider slushie.  Instead, it was 80s (read: comfortable), and packed. Insanely packed for Spanish Fork. Felt like late September/early October packed.  The grilled cheese was having issues due to their power, and then when I ate it, I got kinda sick later. Not that there was anything wrong with it, but rather that my stomach just couldn't take it for some reason.  A bit of a letdown. I've been looking forward to those strange crossover days since early February, but they're not -- this year -- all they've been cracked up to be. I ended up retreating back to my water parks, mostly. Lagoon itself had nice crossover yesterday - haunts almost ready, Thriller playing while at the water park.  But I don't feel  it.  We have one more weekend and IDK. 

been on the struggle bus If I can fix my engineering block, I will be able to fix my WP issues via HostGator. Please stand by

My schedule as-is hasn't had a lot of buffer time, which kind of sucks because there's this ambient stress of "if anything breaks, I'm screwed." And things will break. Like car tires at the changing of seasons. Ugh So I'm trying to build some in now, without messing with my high mileage protocols. Wish me luck. Also, I need to lift for longer. 

My WordPress site is starting to drive me nuts. It's such a crappy piece of software. Image uploads keep breaking and I can't even access the site in safari right now.  May have to find a better solution, because it's not like I ever even got WP dev interviews back when I was applying for jobs. 

Where summer and fall overlap.  Me: fall is going to be awesome. Corn mazes and bonfires and getting into bed all cozy, drawtober, the lights of my PC in the darkness, pumpkin patches, roller coasters, more writing and reading good books... Also me: BUT SUMMER IS LEAVING 😭 Yeah, I dunno. I guess both can be true at the same time. until then, let's enjoy that weird period of time when fire and ice collide, where you can leave a corn maze and 20 minutes later be at the water park under the changing leaves. 

What is going on over there in Gatlinburg?  People are flipping out at Adventure Is Out There for taking...explicitly allowed pictures...of the Nightflight Expedition boats.  OOH, IT IS A BOAT THAT LOOKS EXACTLY LIKE THE CONCEPT ART! SO SPOILERY! AAAAAAA Facebook drama is so weird. I just unfollowed BAD Adventures because I do not have the energy for this BS. Why do you care? What is going on in the beautiful area of Sevier County? I don't know, and I don't have the spoons to find out. I just show up once a year to run races at Dolly. 

Vampires with bruxism.  They have trouble drinking blood because their teeth are too blunt.  #DentistSaidIGrindInMySleepCuzTheGrindNeverStops

Fun spot ATL and SFOG were honestly amazing. Idk why I felt so tired going in. I'm no longer sick of airports and planes and I'm not sure how I ever was. I'm READY to go to Indiana and Kentucky next weekend lol.  That said, I still do really need some calm weekends. 

Here you go, because I confuse people somehow.  I am a tech geek. I have a computer science degree focused on animation and games, and I love coding, hacking, homelabs, gaming, and game development. I keep up with tech and coding news and love my gadgets. I eschew business and those who are only in tech for the money or because they didn't know what else to do.  I am a digital artist and animator. I love Art Fight and creating fantasy illustrations. I dream of having my own booth at a con's artist alley one day.  I am a fantasy and science fiction writer. I read daily and aim to become published in order to write full time.  I am a fan. I love books, movies, games, anime. When I get into a world or franchise, I go all-in. I enjoy conventions for this reason and attend at least 3 per year (SDCC, FanX, and LTUE).  I am a musician. I play clarinet and piano and dream of playing classically as part of a wind symphony. I listen to lots of music too.  I am a roll...

getting to WDW a day before visiting any parks and just having a leisurely midmorning run along the resorts after a good night's rest would fix me  like just feeling the quiet ambience of the resorts and just being there  but without the pressure yet so would having a normal summer saturday  Honestly kind of stressed about this weekend. I have to catch a flight tonight at 5:55 PM and I will be arriving in Atlanta shortly before midnight, a city I've never been to. I will then drive to Austell for my hotel, and the next morning I will immediately attempt to ride ArieForce One, the other 2 credits at Fun Spot Atlanta before they shut down the whole thing in 3 days, and then all of SFOG.  On a day when thunderstorms are predicted.  There's a bit too much going on this summer and I just want some of those summer haze days, risky as they are.  I have another trip the very next weekend and I haven't taken a day off from caffeine in quite a few weeks. 

because no one wrote an article about this.  A few observations: you can do it, but it's probably better to take it as a deload week due to all the walking, standing, and jostling on top of the runs. my calves are so shot that I didn't run at all today. BUT, again, you CAN do it.  while there are less crowds running towards the airport from the Star of India, you can only get about 4.4 miles without running into Liberty Station and having to run through random shopping districts  and you can't really run the famous Embarcadero route because it's full of Hall H queuers -- the paths are not all open. you can run one of the parks, but not the one near the con If you run towards Seaport from the Star of India you will run out of path, even with taking the peninsulas, after about 2.9 miles.  so much looping. so much freaking looping around to hit mileage targets. holy hell.  Please note, all of this assumes starting at the Hotel Little Italy / Courtyard Marriott Litt...

The Two Ghosts I either lift at Parc or at Orem Rec depending on the day. But when I go to lift at Parc pre-dawn, there has always been this couple that is running on the treadmills in pitch darkness.  It's super creepy. Are these NPCs? Ghosts? No matter. Lights ON, WAKEY WAKEY EGGS AND BAKEY. If you wanted to run in total darkness, there's this thing called "outside", and it has cool coyotes and shit.  Slides and Hoodie Guy It's July, and currently hotter than Satan's sweaty armpit. But this guy is lifting in a hoodie and sweats, and is wearing slides and socks. If he's the only one in there, the fan will be off. ???? The gym is lucky I wear more than just my Janji half tights this time of year. And why lift in slides? Do you want to die? I Have Chosen The Dumbbells For My Cell Phone's Perch This lady always puts her cell phone ON TOP OF A PAIR OF DUMBBELLS, WHILE THEY ARE ON THE RACK, and then goes to lift with a different set of dumbbells. She does ...

All around me I see nothing but people settling.  I will never do this. Either I find her or I die alone wishing for her and searching for her in the next life.  There are no compromises and no exceptions ever. I will never do what everyone else is doing. I'd rather lie in the dirt and let the earth reclaim me. 

You will die alone in a basement apartment with 27 cats. Others will always recognize your many flaws. There are no silver linings on those dark clouds above you. Your final memory will be choking to death on a chocolate chip pancake smothered in syrup and whipped cream while at an IHOP in the middle of Indiana. The spider you couldn’t get last night in your bathroom is currently laying eggs. When you lie awake tonight, always remember that no one is ever going to love you. Your mom. Your friends have an extra group chat without you in it. You will sneeze during a job interview and a visible amount of saliva will land on the interviewer's desk. Your friend will get an empty slot on their Super Duolingo plan and will give it to another friend instead of you. You can’t just wait on the pizzle and on the dizzle. You must also wait upon the shizzle. Do not commit tax fraud. That is a felony. Just because it’s moral doesn’t mean it’s legal. It is not advisable to commit se...

Take Vyvanse: ok uwu Take caffeine (not even coffee or preworkout) because you're an endurance athlete who doesn't want to mess with your heart rate like Vyvanse would or have that intense of withdrawals: OMG ADDICT ALERT AAAAAAA My GPA shot up to 3.98 when I started managing my ADHD-PI with caffeine. I felt like for the first time since early elementary school, my output actually matched my intellectual ability. My dreams are finally happening because the disorder isn't controlling me anymore  except for with the messy apartment thing, which I AM working on. 

you are blasting Pierce the Veil and Three Days Grace and Children of Bodom while drawing and you are FREAKING FIRED UP HOLY HELL  I'd better sleep a lot tonight because tomorrow is going to suck. But this was intentional -- with water park crowds amping up, I knew I wasn't going to get writing and coding done until after dinner, so I had to fight against the exhaustion preemptively.  Pierce the Veil: So Far So Fake Pierce the Veil: King for a Day Pierce the Veil: A Match Into Water Three Days Grace: Animal I Have Become Children of Bodom: Bodom Beach Terror Straight Line Stitch: Dark Matter Children of Bodom: Don't Stop at the Top  Eleine: Death Incarnate  Somebody wake me from this nightmare I can't escape this hell

turns out this store sucks and hardly stocks anything. why do people always rave about it?  - no hillshire farms spicy calabrese salami snack plates. I eat like 4 of those per week.  - no crystal light energy variety pack. I go through 16 packets each week.  - no dole LIGHT pineapple juice, which I drink daily because it saves me 60 calories compared to the normal one.  but at least they have silk vanilla soymilk...? going to the grocery store is a waste of time, yes. but... why did I buy this garbage?  might switch to walmart or target...

I quit band after sophomore year of high school and am still mad at myself for doing it. I restarted doing university band in college (non-audition), but I sucked. Like I just wasn't good.  The problem is that after missing those formative years, people are just like  It's okay!!!! you can still play! ^____^ just do like a cute lil community band! and play on holidays! uwu uwu playing at the pro level? ohhhh you had to go to a conservatory for that! it's far too late for THAT now! ^_____^ but why would you want to? it's better to just have funnnnnnnn!~~~ Now, I did like my community bands and the people I met, but I also started to get super demotivated. It sucked to drive 45 minutes in commuter traffic to get to band. When I got a closer one, the schedule kept shifting on me which eventually just stopped working so I wasn't able to go anymore, and I lost motivation even when my schedule shifted back. And since it wasn't a competitive environment, I was not mot...

My brother seems to think I'm hardcore outdoors for some reason.  This is how my life actually goes. Main pursuits:  1. TECH: Code and IT, electronics  2. ART and animation  3. Reading and writing speculative fiction 4. MUSIC 5. Games and game dev 6. Running, lifting, and yoga  7. Theme parks and their engineering  Secondary: I like learning about astronomy, dinosaurs, and languages.  Hiking is just cross training that I do sometimes. I don't know what is going on with this. 

I never liked lettuce. I forced myself to eat a bunch of salads in like 2021 in an attempt to lose weight. It was disgusting and it didn't work either. Only CICO made me lose weight which I started in 2022 because MATH is POWER . The only decent salads were those mexican salads with a bunch of corn and tortilla chips, but even those I couldn't finish before getting grossed out and stopping. Then just eating...the tortilla chips and corn.  I did not like burgers as a kid because a) the loma vista elementary burgers were actually pretty nasty, and b) burgers have lettuce. I did not realize that you could ask for no lettuce on the burger. This was like a revelation to me when someone told me and I love burgers now.  no lettuce tho  and do I get lettuce on my Taco Smell? lmao, no. I had lettuce on a sandwich a few months ago because it was a free work sandwich and eventually I just couldn't do it anymore and ended up taking it off.  and it's not like I eat any of the oth...

wakeup: 2 am  leave hotel in lone pine (best western frontier motel): 3 am arrive at portal: 3:35 am?  poop, get stuff packed, take photos... actually start hiking: 3:56 am summit: 12 pm (yeah) finish: 7:30 pm  thoughts:  probably not doing that again. apparently from 2012 I forgot how hard it was.  the starlight at the start is absolutely beautiful. holy crap. like stepping into the little dream world of mine where you can see into the heavens and every night there is a meteor shower. it was like that made real. you could see nebulae and so many stars.  by mile 10 or so, you start to think "I am never going to get off this mountain" because your brain is cooked but you have to get to the summit then all the way back down  my watch said 22.2 miles, not 22, and that extra 0.2 sucked i almost got eaten by a horsefly at the summit, but was saved by a brown bird  i was farting a lot. so much freaking farting. eventually i had to stop because it was go...

Maybe I should be a med school cadaver after I die, unless Bryan Johnson discovers eternal mortality or something.  Imagine haunting a bunch of stressed out pre-meds. I've always respected people who work hard in school, so why not make their lives more exciting?  PATRICIA! YOU HAVEN'T FINISHED STUDYING FOR O-CHEM OOOOOOOOOOOO 👻👻👻👻👻👻👻👻👻👻👻👻 ok if I make it to like 90 I'll get on a list, otherwise, sorry pre-meds

The first time I did Whitney, I didn't really get nervous about it.  I was just kind of...on Warrior Cats Forums and listening to T-Swift until we got out of the car. I mean, I don't think the internet was that good, but I was at least trying.  Then we hiked, I ate a crapload of food, got back down to the car, went back online. On the RP: "sorry I was gone all day, was on a hike to the top of a mountain!" then back in business.  Then we got some pizza I think?  IDK. It wasn't a big deal. I've always been an anxious person, but I did not worry about Whitney.  But in Utah, there's a ton of outdoors-as-identity types that have basically caused me to overthink it so badly. You've got to be THE HIKER, THE OUTDOORSMAN, and I'm just...not.  Sure, I can be described as outdoorsy. Outdoorsy nerd is an archetype and it's probably one of mine. But I think of myself as: Writer, artist, developer, IT guy, gamer, musician, engineer, coaster enthusiast, multi...

Verdict LogRide has me at 46 total experiences, with 43/56 attractions ridden. This is almost certainly the best I've done.  Actual times I exited rides Ran 4 miles on lagoon trail and showered at campground 9:50 terroride (yee) 10-10:15 cannibal  10:15-10:28 spider 10:28-10:35 wicked 10:44 rc (out) 10:53 re entry 10:58 blastoff 11:07 Sam 11:18 bat 11:26 bomb 11:39 ice (as in, I bought Italian ice and got brain freeze) 12:02 finished lunch which was mostly tendies and fries 12:09 time tinker  12:17 steamworx 12:29 wild mouse  12:47 air race 12:57 aces 1:02 tilt a whirl  1:11 space 1:26 colossus BREAK AND RECON 1:56 dracula 2:25 paratrooper but 2 cycles 2:39 centennial 2:56 sky Ride  3:07 musik 3:24 rocko 3:31 tidal 3:39 turn ICE CREAM @ PV 4:19 nuts PRETZEL 4:51 odysea BREAK TO LAB LAB but some kid puked so I only got the Pipeline tower (x2 shout, wipeout closed), Outrigger, and 20 minutes queueing for Liquid Lightning BURRITO 7:37 Merry go round 8:15-8:20i...