10/21/26

We've reached depths of autism that even I didn't think were possible (WE'RE, not were, apple intelligence sucks, I need to turn it off)

I think I've listened to this song maybe 40 times since I heard it on my drive home on Sunday. I can't stop. It's like an auditory stim, even though it hits me with a profound wave of sadness every time. 

It also makes me want to push even harder, because I'm terrified of running out of time, and I have to make all of this happen before it's over. And I may not do drugs, but there's plenty of drug-free ways to calm yourself down, that still aren't really healthy. 

And they said it's fool's gold, it's got a hold

I'm dying here

Lovers talk, late at night, doing drugs to ease my mind

I'm not all right 

https://genius.com/Buffalo-traffic-jam-fools-gold-lyrics

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