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Strange denizens of the Parc on center gym

The Two Ghosts I either lift at Parc or at Orem Rec depending on the day. But when I go to lift at Parc pre-dawn, there has always been this couple that is running on the treadmills in pitch darkness.  It's super creepy. Are these NPCs? Ghosts? No matter. Lights ON, WAKEY WAKEY EGGS AND BAKEY. If you wanted to run in total darkness, there's this thing called "outside", and it has cool coyotes and shit.  Slides and Hoodie Guy It's July, and currently hotter than Satan's sweaty armpit. But this guy is lifting in a hoodie and sweats, and is wearing slides and socks. If he's the only one in there, the fan will be off. ???? The gym is lucky I wear more than just my Janji half tights this time of year. And why lift in slides? Do you want to die? I Have Chosen The Dumbbells For My Cell Phone's Perch This lady always puts her cell phone ON TOP OF A PAIR OF DUMBBELLS, WHILE THEY ARE ON THE RACK, and then goes to lift with a different set of dumbbells. She does ...

There is no love in the world

All around me I see nothing but people settling.  I will never do this. Either I find her or I die alone wishing for her and searching for her in the next life.  There are no compromises and no exceptions ever. I will never do what everyone else is doing. I'd rather lie in the dirt and let the earth reclaim me. 

Evil fortune cookie ideas:

You will die alone in a basement apartment with 27 cats. Others will always recognize your many flaws. There are no silver linings on those dark clouds above you. Your final memory will be choking to death on a chocolate chip pancake smothered in syrup and whipped cream while at an IHOP in the middle of Indiana. The spider you couldn’t get last night in your bathroom is currently laying eggs. When you lie awake tonight, always remember that no one is ever going to love you. Your mom. Your friends have an extra group chat without you in it. You will sneeze during a job interview and a visible amount of saliva will land on the interviewer's desk. Your friend will get an empty slot on their Super Duolingo plan and will give it to another friend instead of you. You can’t just wait on the pizzle and on the dizzle. You must also wait upon the shizzle. Do not commit tax fraud. That is a felony. Just because it’s moral doesn’t mean it’s legal. It is not advisable to commit se...

Utah logic:

Take Vyvanse: ok uwu Take caffeine (not even coffee or preworkout) because you're an endurance athlete who doesn't want to mess with your heart rate like Vyvanse would or have that intense of withdrawals: OMG ADDICT ALERT AAAAAAA My GPA shot up to 3.98 when I started managing my ADHD-PI with caffeine. I felt like for the first time since early elementary school, my output actually matched my intellectual ability. My dreams are finally happening because the disorder isn't controlling me anymore  except for with the messy apartment thing, which I AM working on. 

you know you've had too much caffeine when

you are blasting Pierce the Veil and Three Days Grace and Children of Bodom while drawing and you are FREAKING FIRED UP HOLY HELL  I'd better sleep a lot tonight because tomorrow is going to suck. But this was intentional -- with water park crowds amping up, I knew I wasn't going to get writing and coding done until after dinner, so I had to fight against the exhaustion preemptively.  Pierce the Veil: So Far So Fake Pierce the Veil: King for a Day Pierce the Veil: A Match Into Water Three Days Grace: Animal I Have Become Children of Bodom: Bodom Beach Terror Straight Line Stitch: Dark Matter Children of Bodom: Don't Stop at the Top  Eleine: Death Incarnate  Somebody wake me from this nightmare I can't escape this hell

not happy with smith's boost so far

turns out this store sucks and hardly stocks anything. why do people always rave about it?  - no hillshire farms spicy calabrese salami snack plates. I eat like 4 of those per week.  - no crystal light energy variety pack. I go through 16 packets each week.  - no dole LIGHT pineapple juice, which I drink daily because it saves me 60 calories compared to the normal one.  but at least they have silk vanilla soymilk...? going to the grocery store is a waste of time, yes. but... why did I buy this garbage?  might switch to walmart or target...

the problem with missing out on high school/college years of playing your instrument...

I quit band after sophomore year of high school and am still mad at myself for doing it. I restarted doing university band in college (non-audition), but I sucked. Like I just wasn't good.  The problem is that after missing those formative years, people are just like  It's okay!!!! you can still play! ^____^ just do like a cute lil community band! and play on holidays! uwu uwu playing at the pro level? ohhhh you had to go to a conservatory for that! it's far too late for THAT now! ^_____^ but why would you want to? it's better to just have funnnnnnnn!~~~ Now, I did like my community bands and the people I met, but I also started to get super demotivated. It sucked to drive 45 minutes in commuter traffic to get to band. When I got a closer one, the schedule kept shifting on me which eventually just stopped working so I wasn't able to go anymore, and I lost motivation even when my schedule shifted back. And since it wasn't a competitive environment, I was not mot...

Bro I am not your mountain man

My brother seems to think I'm hardcore outdoors for some reason.  This is how my life actually goes. Main pursuits:  1. TECH: Code and IT, electronics  2. ART and animation  3. Reading and writing speculative fiction 4. MUSIC 5. Games and game dev 6. Running, lifting, and yoga  7. Theme parks and their engineering  Secondary: I like learning about astronomy, dinosaurs, and languages.  Hiking is just cross training that I do sometimes. I don't know what is going on with this. 

neurodivergents marked safe from diarrheacolapyse 2026?

I never liked lettuce. I forced myself to eat a bunch of salads in like 2021 in an attempt to lose weight. It was disgusting and it didn't work either. Only CICO made me lose weight which I started in 2022 because MATH is POWER . The only decent salads were those mexican salads with a bunch of corn and tortilla chips, but even those I couldn't finish before getting grossed out and stopping. Then just eating...the tortilla chips and corn.  I did not like burgers as a kid because a) the loma vista elementary burgers were actually pretty nasty, and b) burgers have lettuce. I did not realize that you could ask for no lettuce on the burger. This was like a revelation to me when someone told me and I love burgers now.  no lettuce tho  and do I get lettuce on my Taco Smell? lmao, no. I had lettuce on a sandwich a few months ago because it was a free work sandwich and eventually I just couldn't do it anymore and ended up taking it off.  and it's not like I eat any of the oth...

apparently I did whitney for some reason

wakeup: 2 am  leave hotel in lone pine (best western frontier motel): 3 am arrive at portal: 3:35 am?  poop, get stuff packed, take photos... actually start hiking: 3:56 am summit: 12 pm (yeah) finish: 7:30 pm  thoughts:  probably not doing that again. apparently from 2012 I forgot how hard it was.  the starlight at the start is absolutely beautiful. holy crap. like stepping into the little dream world of mine where you can see into the heavens and every night there is a meteor shower. it was like that made real. you could see nebulae and so many stars.  by mile 10 or so, you start to think "I am never going to get off this mountain" because your brain is cooked but you have to get to the summit then all the way back down  my watch said 22.2 miles, not 22, and that extra 0.2 sucked i almost got eaten by a horsefly at the summit, but was saved by a brown bird  i was farting a lot. so much freaking farting. eventually i had to stop because it was go...

not to be morbid, but:

Maybe I should be a med school cadaver after I die, unless Bryan Johnson discovers eternal mortality or something.  Imagine haunting a bunch of stressed out pre-meds. I've always respected people who work hard in school, so why not make their lives more exciting?  PATRICIA! YOU HAVEN'T FINISHED STUDYING FOR O-CHEM OOOOOOOOOOOO 👻👻👻👻👻👻👻👻👻👻👻👻 ok if I make it to like 90 I'll get on a list, otherwise, sorry pre-meds

outdoors as identity? not really.

The first time I did Whitney, I didn't really get nervous about it.  I was just kind of...on Warrior Cats Forums and listening to T-Swift until we got out of the car. I mean, I don't think the internet was that good, but I was at least trying.  Then we hiked, I ate a crapload of food, got back down to the car, went back online. On the RP: "sorry I was gone all day, was on a hike to the top of a mountain!" then back in business.  Then we got some pizza I think?  IDK. It wasn't a big deal. I've always been an anxious person, but I did not worry about Whitney.  But in Utah, there's a ton of outdoors-as-identity types that have basically caused me to overthink it so badly. You've got to be THE HIKER, THE OUTDOORSMAN, and I'm just...not.  Sure, I can be described as outdoorsy. Outdoorsy nerd is an archetype and it's probably one of mine. But I think of myself as: Writer, artist, developer, IT guy, gamer, musician, engineer, coaster enthusiast, multi...

Lagooning results

Verdict LogRide has me at 46 total experiences, with 43/56 attractions ridden. This is almost certainly the best I've done.  Actual times I exited rides Ran 4 miles on lagoon trail and showered at campground 9:50 terroride (yee) 10-10:15 cannibal  10:15-10:28 spider 10:28-10:35 wicked 10:44 rc (out) 10:53 re entry 10:58 blastoff 11:07 Sam 11:18 bat 11:26 bomb 11:39 ice (as in, I bought Italian ice and got brain freeze) 12:02 finished lunch which was mostly tendies and fries 12:09 time tinker  12:17 steamworx 12:29 wild mouse  12:47 air race 12:57 aces 1:02 tilt a whirl  1:11 space 1:26 colossus BREAK AND RECON 1:56 dracula 2:25 paratrooper but 2 cycles 2:39 centennial 2:56 sky Ride  3:07 musik 3:24 rocko 3:31 tidal 3:39 turn ICE CREAM @ PV 4:19 nuts PRETZEL 4:51 odysea BREAK TO LAB LAB but some kid puked so I only got the Pipeline tower (x2 shout, wipeout closed), Outrigger, and 20 minutes queueing for Liquid Lightning BURRITO 7:37 Merry go round 8:15-8:20i...

Lagooning prep

Rough draft of all the rides and activities I'm committing to. I generally skip anything that's awkward to do solo, like bumper cars or river rapids. I also skip anything where an adult cannot fit comfortably, even if you can fit technically and allowed as per park rules (basically Flying Tigers and Engine 86).  Some rides cannot be done solo, mainly the ferris wheel. And the train is CLOSED.  The hardcore version includes extra coaster laps at night.  The ultra hardcore version involves also doing all rides at Cherry Hill.  Lagooning A Tier: Cannibal, Nutcracker, Spider, Rocket Re-Entry, Rocket Blastoff, Wicked, Roller Coaster, Wild Mouse, Samurai, Bat, Bombora Sweaty: Time Tinker, Air Race, Space Scrambler, Tilt a Whirl, (Dinosaur Drop, Ladybug Bop = may skip), Flying Aces Lmao: Paratrooper, Rock o Plane Not Too Bad: OdySea, Steamworx, Sky Ride, Centennial, Dracula's Castle, Tidal Wave, Turn of the Century, Colossus Primordial: Primordial Lagoon a Beach: Outrigger,...

Things to remember about Whitney

1. It's not freaking K2. The articles are greatly exaggerated about the difficulty. It's a normal hike with altitude that takes forever. It's not even mountaineering. And you don't need multiple days.  2. At the same time, you see unprepared people on the mountain. People get turned around at the switchbacks a lot. I've been on the mountain twice, and summited once, with a third summit attempt coming up, and there is often at least one person in my group that I'm worried about.  So basically: train seriously but don't freak out. 

New job is great

Commute is a bit rough, and you have to wear pants, but it's only 2 days a week and public transport is still better than driving.  Otherwise, it's great. I'm very pleased. The engineering pipelines run smoothly - AND I'm FINALLY learning Google Cloud. Will hopefully learn Terraform as well.  Phew.