Seasonal Affective Disorder Music: Like They Even Know by I Hate This Place

I Hate This Place was a band recommendation that I found on the Owl City subreddit. The commenter said that they were very similar to Owl City, but a little darker. 

I tried out a few of their songs and I became a fan. Unfortunately, it looks like their heyday was in 2010. As it was for most of the bands that I like. Their social media is dead now. 2010 was just a better time. :|

The Snowlights album has helped with my SAD. It talks about winter but it doesn't glorify it. Most of IHTP's music is sad. 

I trace your outline across the snowfall 

Moving slow under the blankets of ice here in my room 

The singer sounds tired. It makes sense, with the themes of sleeping and cold. Tracing the imagined outline of someone you wish was beside you while the snow blows outside. The world feels icy, inhospitable, and sad. It makes me want to go somewhere far away. 

What it feels like to be with you...

When all the masks we wear have fallen away.

When all that makes sense in this frozen world is to burn to ashes from the sparks of our flames.

The world is frozen and grim right now, and I wish it would light up with sunshine and heat instead. I wish I knew what it felt like to experience the first two lines of this passage. 

And they act so proud, when they ask out loud "what are we proving?" 

like they even know.

I had many afternoon walks through BYU campus during winter, listening to this song. I just felt this crushing sadness but the music helped. 

I'm feeling a bit better now these days, though I have dips in mood still. The SAD lamp, caffeine rotation, commitment to the gym and running...it does seem to be helping! And while I'm tired, I do love my field. Career, education, etc. and it's what I want to do. 

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