Living how I wanted to live in the early 2010s.

Why do I idealize 2010-2012 so much? My mental health wasn't in a good spot, to say the least, I was 45 minutes late everywhere, my sleep hygiene was horrendous, I was a lot less socially confident, I lived like a pack rat, I was petrified of going on a mission, and I was cranky and rather unpleasant to be around in-person. 

I don't want to go back to ANY of that!

But then again, I had so much fun on the internet. I was active and met many great people. I read a lot and went to the library often. I started coding and making art during this time, and was writing a decent amount too -- both original fiction and super nerdy pokemon fanfiction. I was only writing chapter 1s though, at least for original fiction. Over and over again, obsessed with perfecting them.

I started to gain a much greater interest in gaming and watching cartoons and anime, but did not have the executive functioning in place required to actually sit down and engage with them. So I would start things and just never finish. Or say I was going to play something and then never do it. Even though I really, really wanted to. 

After finally finishing MLP (yes the cringe neckbeard show) this past week, except for the movies which I need to watch soon, I started to get really frustrated with myself for taking so LONG to master that part of time management. If I had finished it earlier, I could've engaged with the community in its heyday, including the BYU club. But it took me a long time to get over the guilt of sitting down, relaxing, and watching a show alone.

So how can I get back to the early 2010s and what I loved about them, but only the good parts?

• I will start reviewing and writing fanfiction again. 
• When I write original fiction and submit it to my groups weekly, I will treat it like fanfiction. Episodic, almost self-contained, with edits made based on each round of feedback, and as polished as possible. Each chapter should feel like its own mini-story. But with no obsessive revision. 
• I will be active every Friday night online on my communities, emails, and fandoms. This means replying on time. 
• I will game every night. And longer than 5-10 minutes. 
• I will read every night, and check out library books. 
• I will have 1 timeslot per week for movies and longer shows. Movies can be broken up and watched in pieces.
• I'll keep watching pokemon during dinner, and 2 episodes of other shows while doing nightly stretches + preparing for bed. 
• I will take commissions once my digital art is up to par and do challenges such as Art Fight, Drawtober, and some writing challenges. 
• Similarly I will get started on my dream webcomics and games. 
• I will clean my whole living space weekly. 
• I'll keep improving my imagination abilities and get enough sleep for lucid dreaming (unlike in 2010). 
• Otherwise, I'll keep studying coding AND engineering, playing music, visiting parks, taking care of my appearance and calorie/protein intake, and running/lifting daily in equal measure. 

I'll be adjusting my autopilot schedules accordingly. Though it won't be a huge change really. Just a few tweaks.