Times I get weirdly nostalgic for

Nostalgia is not a comfortable emotion. I do not like it. Even so, to me it's a signal that I've lost touch with some aspect of myself. I'm someone who likes staying committed to pursuits and fandoms so that helps with it. 

I get weirdly nostalgic for:

  • Friday night nicktoons (SpongeBob, jimmy neutron, and so forth)
  • Sat morning cartoons 
  • 2010 fanfiction reviewing
  • 2010-2012 internet in general
  • Playing with toys as a kid
  • That one spring term where my friends and I watched anime a lot and talked about art and japanese and I was working in IT and always ahead on my coding labs 
  • Working at DreamWorks 
I also haven't played really any of my backlog games from like 2010ish on, except for some new ones. Now that I've established games as a daily habit, I'm equipped to dive back in. I have always wanted to play Skyrim for example. Now I will finally be able to do it! Tonight. If I can play it alongside my smaller backlog games and balance it all, that is. 

Actually, pretty much all of these can be done today if just with slightly different vibes. Well and instead of working at DreamWorks I will just have to upskill in 3D art, graphics programming, and pipeline dev. 

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