The bouncing brain dilemma

One interesting problem I’ve been having to deal with is my mind’s tendency to bounce around incessantly between various interests. 

Which is funny, because I definitely hyperfixate and have special interests. But after hyperfixating for a while, I’ll bounce again, and it won’t be in my control. My brain will be on a roll reviewing math for a few days, then it will panic and say “crap we need to do 3D art more”, then it will get down a 2D and drawing rabbit hole instead, then it will want to learn like 20 different computer science concepts at the same time. Then it will get obsessed with theme parks again and oh I guess we’re focusing on that now, aren’t we? Crap I really need to be obsessed with coding again because I’ve got stuff due. Haha just kidding now it’s true crime and abnormal psychology. And now it’s symphonic metal. Oops time to binge Owl City for 3 days straight. Ok now we’re obsessing over romance, now I want to read my geysers book again, now I want to read about water parks, now dinosaurs are back, now I want to start playing the clarinet more regularly and go back to band, then I remember my 5-zillion unread Facebook and forum messages and I feel bad but forget to reply again, oh crap I haven’t lucid dreamed in a while, what about Legos, oh let’s write, ooh math, just kidding let’s do physics, then I want to play video games or catch up on cartoons, etc. Oh, NOW we’re back to coding, finally — crap, brain, why are you going to IT and cybersecurity?! It’s like playing Ping Pong, but with 100 balls and all of them are frictionless. 

And then people suggest to me more shows or things to do. Like no, I legitimately can’t take any more interests on right now, it is frying my brain D: I never lose interest in things that I love. I just lose hyperfixation and hyperfocusing. It is quite frustrating, and it causes my Trello boards to mutate. 

But! By focusing my daily study primarily in my main areas of passion (writing, computers, art), the problem is at least SOMEWHAT mitigated. Assuming I don’t spend half of my writing block reading YouTube comments on the song I’m listening to. 

So, the solution to the bouncing brain dilemma is not yet found. But I guess I will keep striving until I do find it. 

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