Ravings of an Undead Cheese Minion

 From here: https://www.programiz.com/dsa/stack Why are you doing this :( The exiting with error code 1 for just having a full stack is making me very uncomfy  Unless they're trying to lean into the whole "stack overflow" thing lol

I lost over 20 pounds in 7 months, and went from 25% to ~16% body fat, and even started seeing a 4-pack of abs -- eating mostly PB&J, Zone Bars, deli meat/cheese sandwiches, white rice, Wheat Thins, apples, protein shakes, a bit of chocolate candy, and those ultra-processed, preservative-filled Hillshire Farms sausages. And drinking a crapload of Crystal Light Energy and Gatorade Zero. I think I ate maybe 3 vegetables the entire time. I am probably going to die by age 50 and my corpse's organs are going to be very interesting to future anatomy students. It's all about burning more than you eat, understanding the necessity of ghrelin (big one here, hunger is not inherently bad especially when you have a fridge full of food), tracking food, strategic use of caffeine, exercising (cardio + lifting), and getting enough protein. I definitely should be eating vegetables, but I'm not going to.  Originally I had a baseline TDEE of 2500 and could eat 3100 with a full workout, 260

During summer 2020, it was my gap year and I was no longer working for Sling. So I was just doing whatever I wanted all day, which was awesome. It usually amounted to working out, sometimes stopping by a water park for a bit, practicing art, taking a nice long walk, coding, and writing. Then, in the evenings, I would watch Beastars. I also starting watching BNA (Brand New Animal), but never finished it, I think because school started and I got swamped.  I started watching it again a few weeks ago. I'm glad I did! It was really nice to get through a show for once, when I have such trouble finishing things. I really enjoyed it -- a fun anime, set in an awesome fantasy version of Japan. It's only 12 episodes and each one packs a punch. Would absolutely recommend. I'm happy to finally be getting more into anime as I'm starting to take my art even more seriously as well. I should have done this years ago, but the second best time to start is now. 

Even with a network error, it's helping a lot. And thank goodness. I am getting FLOORED by these graduate-level computer science papers, which apparently expect me to have taken math well beyond differential equations. Here is the very confusing paper which I need to understand and implement for my own graduate work.   Generating it a second time:  Meh, first one was much better. I really just need to figure out wtf a circumcircle is: Ooh, now that's intuitive!  I tried to thank it and the poor bot busted. I think too many people are using it right now. Anyway, time to clock into work! 

I'm getting to the gym at around 5:30 AM each morning instead of 5:50 AM, which is good. However, I need to be getting there by 5:15.  Additionally, I keep missing the evening cleaning and gaming blocks, and I am not getting to bed on time consistently.  And instead of starting my studying by 7:30 AM, I usually start by 8:00 AM or 8:15 AM. This is still a huge improvement, but I can do better. I need a way to spend less time eating breakfast. I haven't figured it out just yet, but it might help to set everything out the night before, or even make the sandwich the night before.  So, it's much better, but still not quite up to par yet! 

...because no one online knows how to explain theoretical CS concepts without getting obscenely abstract and obtuse.  Now, once it gets into the math, I probably need some further elaboration on that. But that's decent progress on my CS fundamentals review for today. I've been reviewing DSA on Programiz and it was pretty good until they started getting super formal and unintuitive with the master theorem. 

I naively thought the art/animation part of my major would be easy (as a sheltered freshman/sophomore in the pre-program). This was until I took my first university-level art class, Intro to Art and Drawing.  Turns out, I was worse at drawing than everyone in the class, including the students who were taking the class for a general education requirement! It was quite embarrassing and discouraging as well.  From high school, I remember drawing Pokemon in my sketchbook on quiet Friday nights at home, thinking about how easy it was. I remember doodling constantly on my notes, sketching all sorts of things, but mostly nature. I remember I won a tiny little art contest on Serebii to design an Eeveelution. Thus, in college, I was so confused as to why drawing for class was so insanely difficult for me. My professor suggested that I was trying too hard to treat art like a math problem, which was definitely true -- but it took me a long time to figure out what she meant by that.  As a kid, my

I had a problem with these materials being pink. Turns out, you just have to put the material inside of a folder called Resources, and then the color is applied.  Material fluidMaterial = Resources.Load("FluidTest", typeof(Material)) as Material; sphere.GetComponent<MeshRenderer>().material = fluidMaterial; sphere.GetComponent<Renderer>().material = fluidMaterial; I actually don't remember if it's MeshRenderer or just Renderer so I have both but w/e. 

It wasn't perfect, so I edited it. But holy crap, this actually might work (though I will S U C K at music, but I can just do more on weekends) 5:00 AM - Wake up and start the day 5:15 AM - Go for a 4-mile run + lift 6:40 AM - Eat breakfast 7:00 AM - Shower and get ready for the day 7:30 AM - Review computer science concepts, set goals, running log, work on personal coding projects for a bit 7:50 AM - Take a 10-minute break 8:00 AM - Work on your master's thesis for 1 hour 9:00 AM - Start work 12:00 PM - Lunch break: Eat lunch for 20 minutes Practice clarinet/piano for 10-20 minutes Take a 30-minute walk 1:00 PM - Resume work (Before clocking out -- Trello sort) 6:00 PM - Dinner break: Eat dinner / watch show for 20 minutes Clean for 10 minutes + prep gym bag Play video games/message friends for 20 minutes Read for 10 minutes 7:00 PM - Writing time:  Write 285 words of your novel Write in your dream journal 7:25 PM - Digital art practice for ~1 hour 8:20 PM - Get ready for bed

5 AM get up: used to this now.  5:30 AM work out: it usually takes me 35 minutes to get ready, but with practice I can speed this up. I need to get up, make my bed, use the restroom, take my meds, eat a bar, brush my teeth, weigh myself, do some quick yoga stretches and rollouts, then drive to the gym.  6:50 AM head home: no issues 7 AM get ready for the day and do technical studies: getting ready for the day always takes more than an hour for some reason, even if I don't multitask with technical studies. I think the pain point is stretching for too long, and mixing my protein shake takes forever. If I watch 1 video during breakfast and somehow get ready by 7:45 that would be ideal... 8 AM technical studies: I always start this late and it bleeds into work, pushing my times later, need to fix the above point  9 AM work, don't forget to clock hours: yay -- need to improve punctuality tho Sometime in the morning dream journal: better to do this in the morning, closer to dream

here's the problem.  I refuse to give up any of my interests. And I'm not a dabbler. I prefer to pursue everything I like seriously.  I am also a human with finite energy (and ADHD-PI). This make things very difficult.  I'm working 9 AM - 6 PM every day. I also need to work on my M.S. thesis for at least an hour a day, but too much more than that and I will fizzle out. I also want to stay on top of my computer science and computer graphics fundamentals, and learn electrical engineering so I can have more leverage for doing theme park design -- which means I need to get good at math and physics too. Finally, I have my own ideas for apps and games that I want to implement.  I'm also an aspiring artist and writer. I need at least an hour to work on art per day. I also need at least 30 minutes to work on writing per day. And I need to read, a lot, to get better at writing.  And I love to play the clarinet and piano, but I haven't improved for years. You can fit in 5 min

Even though I'm sick of homework, etc., I often wish I could redo undergrad, with the knowledge I have now (i.e., not a terrified 18-year-old kid and then a slightly less terrified but clueless 21 year old after my mission). Technically I can, but I don't want to think about that right now, especially since I'm currently doing a master's -- so the point is fairly moot.  I keep thinking, I could've done the CompTIA trifecta during one summer. I could've majored in computer engineering instead of computer science, so I wouldn't be quite as cut off from roller coaster engineering jobs and still learned app/game development (though I can still work at certain companies with a CS degree + PLC certifications). I could've worked more hours and managed my time a lot better with the skills I have now, and maybe even pulled off a 3.9 to 4.0 GPA. Additionally, I could've still minored in Animation or Digital Art or Illustration and I would've very likely go

I never cared about being a "polymath"; I just got sick of people telling me that I have too many interests so I search the term when trying to find others who are determined to excel at more than one thing. I am going to do what I want, and I'm going to get good at it. This leads me to polymath communities, but many of them are not good.  Here are some of the problems:  Some people are weirdly obsessed with the historical idea of being a polymath, like DaVinci, so they artificially choose a bunch of activities to do so they can "become a polymath". Idk, guess I've never cared about being able to call myself a polymath, it just happened on its own -- I just want to become a great artist, writer, programmer, bug bounty hunter, runner, lifter, theme park designer, gamer, etc., all on their own. I only care about the "polymath" thing because I can shove the label at people who tell me I'm doing too much and I'll apparently never get any good b