Ravings of an Undead Cheese Minion

I kinda jacked this one up. I was really off-track for the First Day of June thing. And the weather was repeatedly bad well into June, which really threw me off from feeling like summer has started. And I didn’t have a summer bucket list this year either. Plus I ran into some roadblocks with my internship project which are scaring the hell out of me because I NEED to get hired back on here. It’s time to resurrect what I’ve lost. I had an amazing week in Hawaii which I will probably write about on A&A. It feels like summer has actually begun. I will balance intensive fun activities with lots of hard work and amazing progress in each of my focus areas. This period of my life is extremely crucial to my future, and my revamp starts today. No more sliding back or getting held back. No longer. This is happening. 

My OCD has attacked many aspects of my life, but one of the worst is  dehydration anxiety . It has the bonus of making you pee all the time, and people asking you if you're diabetic (I'm not). It has frustrated my family, everyone I have traveled with, and almost every single one of my mission companions.  It's effectively orthorexia, but with water.  Put me in an office, or on BYU campus with its many drinking fountains and restrooms, and I'll have no issues at all. You won't even notice that I have OCD. Put me in nature, or in a crowded city beset by COVID paranoia such that all its drinking fountains are closed, or on a long road trip, and bad things will start to happen.  Today I definitely had issues with it. But, you keep going.  Other link

Reflections in water have always fascinated me. I loved learning about the Fresnel effect in my computer graphics courses as well.  My goal is to be able to render reflections incredibly well, in both 2D and 3D mediums. Similarly, when coding my fluid solver (which I am a bit behind on), I hope that I can include realistic reflections as a part of it.  This piece is by Ricardo Sanz. I found it on the Facebook page “Louise’s Favorite Pictures”. Link.  I’m not sure what style this is called, but in addition to the sci-fi/fantasy/horror art that I want to make, I also want to make stuff that looks like this. 

This time, there WILL be blood.  What on earth is going on?! It’s been freezing in Utah, Idaho, and Wyoming. And possibly Montana? Idk. But the rest of the country is enjoying a nice heat wave and it just SUCKS here. Yes we’ve had hot days, but the cold keeps returning like it’s still April. Really running out of steam here. I can’t enjoy my summer if the cold keeps coming back. Because it starts getting cold again in September and I’d really like to actually enjoy the warm season.  And it’s been infuriatingly shortened this year. Am I going to have to bundle up in July?!  At least we are going to Hawaii this week. It had better be nice. :V last time we had Hurricane Lane to deal with. 

FINALLY There is so much I want to do right now, and I am so behind. But, I am exhausted. I should go to sleep. I am trying to follow the philosophy of “Rest is a biological imperative and does not need to be earned.” So I will.  “We will get there eventually. But for now, rest.” 

I think a huge part of the reason why my ghosted lines were so...crappy was because when drawing from my shoulder, I focused so much  on what my shoulder  was doing that I did not think about my wrist or my grip.  It seems like, when I grip the pen tightly while drawing from the shoulder, my lines tend to be much straighter. So I still draw from the shoulder, but I do not grip the pen as loosely as I used to. 

I understand censoring swear words on FM radio, even if they don't particularly bother me in my music, but 100.3 goes WAY too far.  I thought censoring "shake it, shake it" by Meghan Trainor was bad. But last week they also censored the word "rough".  Yes, that's right. The word "rough".  Because Lady Gaga says "if it isn't rough, it isn't fun." And we can't have that, now can we.  This is like extremist 14-year-old me, who was uber-paranoid about everything, getting the reins to operate public radio. We are adults , ffs. We don't have to be afraid of the word "rough".