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this is pretty cool

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like I have no idea what this Houdini file is doing (something with fonts?) but OOH PRETTY NUMBERS :O 

New FDOJ plan

FDOJ = first day of June, but it's really going to be for Friday, May 26, 2023, which is 211 days from now (I have a counter installed on Chrome). Close enough, and it gives us a small buffer.  All my deadlines for personal work are set. My deadlines for fun stuff, like getting through my reading list, are WAY looser.  I'm a little bit less aggressive this time, but this is still going to be a major stretch. For example, I no longer have a weekly mileage goal, just a weight and body fat % goal. I also gave myself a HUGE amount of leeway on cybersecurity and CompTIA, because I'm fine with making that a summer project. Trying to take those exams while completing a master's is a bit much. Of course, if I can smash that goal, even better.  This is going to be ridiculously hard, but I'm behind and I know where I need to be. I think if I push enough and do my best, I can do it. If I fall behind, I'll proceed forward anyway, and catch right back up.  Ideally, I won'

real

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 this is so stupid lmao why did I post this 

Black Adam

We watched this over the weekend. I didn't know much about it, other than it had the Rock in it, which was enough for me to go.  It was great! I don't have much in way of complaints. It was a really cool film! Would definitely recommend it. 

Entropy

Entropy is a natural law of the universe, stating that it is always moving to a state of greater disorder. Your spaces will always get messier without regular cleaning, your to-do lists will mutate if not pruned, your muscles will atrophy if not used, your skills will weaken or at least stagnate if not regularly practiced.  It's very annoying.  But it helps me to think of maintenance tasks as an ongoing fight against entropy. Fight it and push it back for as long as possible. 

Lost 5 pounds!

I started between 170 and 172. I’m now down to 165! Only 10 pounds more to go before I can start maintenance and then reassess! 

Never again!

I can't let my mom's words hurt me anymore.  I mean, they do. But it wrecked me today. Think about how much power those short few minutes of her anger had over me. It ruined most of my day. I could hardly focus on anything. Well, I've had enough of that. I will not let this bring me down any longer. I have my goals and I won't let my parents' opinions that I shouldn't do them stop me any longer. I live my life my own way, and I still have no idea what I'm doing that makes her think I am so sinful and unrighteous. But I don't care anymore. I know I'm a good person and I'm not doing anything wrong. I will not beat myself up again. I will not hate myself anymore. 

Never enough.

Some of us will never be enough for our parents.  Waking up at 5 AM is too early.  Going to bed at 9 PM is too early.  But I need to stop being late everywhere. Just wake up at the same time as everyone else, skip your workout but still be in great shape, and magically be faster?  I am too fat, but I used to be too skinny. I'm never just right.  Running 12-13 miles on Saturdays is "too much". I should sacrifice everything for my grades, including sleep and exercise. I should just eat less in order to avoid being fat.  I shouldn't lift weights because bodybuilders are gross.  I'm a bad Mormon who has done "a complete 180" in righteousness and "fallen so far since my mission" because I sometimes clean my apartment on Sundays, and because I'm unmarried at 29, and because I'm uncertain about having children, and because I only pay tithing a few times a year (despite paying it in full), and because I'm late to church sometimes, and I sup

iOS safari tabs.

Apple needs to make that “close all tabs” button about 900 times harder to click on. I just lost 500 tabs because I clicked on it accidentally while trying to move my Wordle tab to the front, and trying to reopen them one by one was such an excruciating process that I gave up after about 10. There’s no way to restore them all at once, for some reason. Hope I didn’t need any of those.  I am wondering now if I could make an app that saves your safari data and can restore all lost tabs. 

SAD is hitting hard.

"Once again, the daylight fades And I'm swallowed by the moon."  ~ November's Doom 

the perfect day

It's a Saturday in early June, I'm ahead on all my personal projects, and I wake up before the sun rises. But it's already getting light outside.  The entire summer lies in front of me, with months of fun promised.  I think about how much fun I had the previous night after work, with a gaming and internet session as the sun went down just as I was getting to sleep at 9:30 PM. I get ready, and pull my running water bottle out of the fridge. I drive up to Riverwoods and start running up Provo Canyon.  Usually, I am with my cousin, and we will keep each other running at a decent pace. When it's this early, it's still cool outside, but I know that the temperature will rise quickly. The summertime crowds haven't arrived yet. I run past Bridal Veil Falls, through a tunnel of green trees that rustle in a slight breeze. Birds are chirping. The early morning sunlight creates subsurface scattering, lighting up the edges of the leaves above us.  As I finish my 13.1 mile ru

Lunch adventures: how to do really cool things during your lunch break

I've always loved the idea of having a mini adventure each time you take a lunch break. With a car, this is doable. An hour is usually enough time to explore places that are 5-15 minutes away from you. You can go to a zoo if you're close, or a fair, or a park. I haven't figured out yet how to fit swimming into a lunch break as you have to shower afterwards (or just sit in a puddle of chlorine until dinnertime, I guess). I've even gone to places 20-25 minutes away but this is generally not advisable because you can only be there for an extremely short amount of time before you have to leave.  Some ideas: Prep lunch in advance, so you don't have to spend time making one or buying one. Then, you can eat it on the go.  Don't take long trips to the restroom during lunch break. When I have to ðŸ’© I try to do it during a break later in the afternoon -- usually 1:50 PM with my modified Pomodoro (50 minutes on, 10 minutes off).  Budget time for prep. Is parking going to b

my father's dragon

got to watch it early  the little dragon is ADORABLE my heart has permanently melted  I would highly recommend watching it when it comes out

220 days

220 days until the best day of the year -- the Friday before Memorial Day Weekend, aka May 26, 2023! I sure hope we'll have good weather this May. As long as it's not freezing cold like this year's was, so the water parks can open on time.  Regardless, this will be the REAL "First Day of June" that I'm working towards. A lot can happen in 220 days. So I'm going to get to it.  Ideas.  Finishing MS.  Getting my art (2D and 3D) to a commission-worthy level, with a portfolio and demo reel. Then, start working on my own larger projects.  Finish my main coding schedule so I can start working on more of my own projects.  Moving up to intermediate level in clarinet and piano. Reviewing all of my math and physics.  Getting my PLC I certificate, and possibly PLC II.  Finally getting my Google IT certification, and possibly some of the CompTIA stuff.  Something with fitness (probably trying to get to 8-10% body fat) Something with writing -- not sure when I'll fi

Learning to embrace a bit of hunger

No, not starving yourself lol.  But I've been implementing a caloric deficit. If I work out more, I get to eat more, but I need to consistently be in a deficit. The nice thing is that I burn so many calories on Saturdays that I can eat a lot of food and still be in a deficit.  During the week though, holy crap. 25 minutes of lifting and 3.25 miles of running per day is pretty much what I can fit in from Monday through Friday. Then I've got 2 midday walks, usually 10-15 minutes each. Hopefully I'll increase that, but for now I'm eating around 2300 calories per day. It's a lot, but I used to eat like 3000 calories a day, and then I dropped to around 2500-2600, and now 2300ish.  I cut it from dinner and snacks. Dinner is good because I just eat a moderate amount, and then I pass out. So if I wake up at 3 am absolutely ravenous, my tiredness overwhelms the hunger and I just drink some water and go back to sleep. I eat a lot at breakfast and lunch. But I'm down to ma

Twitter is getting irritating

The “share screenshot instead” prompt that keeps showing up on Twitter now is beyond annoying. I screenshot everything . I save everything I find interesting by screenshooting. I have over 125K pictures saved to my phone and I’d say over half of them are screenshots. If this keeps happening it’s going to make using this app extremely inconvenient and I’m going to end up on just Reddit and FB again. I don’t usually screenshot tweets to share them elsewhere. I screenshot them for myself. So this decision is idiotic and makes innocent scrolling 20x more irritating. What I do on MY phone with MY apps is my own business, and apps shouldn’t try to hijack that. 

The wisdom of Wanda

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 This is Wanda:  And here is her wisdom for today:

No more zero days

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seems legit

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lmao spam emails are hilarious.   

poetry 9/26 - 10/02

a sea of crumpled, thin, wasting bodies black tinging their limbs the scent of burning flesh one lies next to you at night her, yours. limp, rotting arms holding you as you sleep the closeness that never ends the cold reek of death her dry paperlike skin never to be lonely again ~ Based on a nightmare I had after visiting the Haunted Forest in American Fork on Saturday.