Never again!

I can't let my mom's words hurt me anymore. 

I mean, they do. But it wrecked me today. Think about how much power those short few minutes of her anger had over me. It ruined most of my day. I could hardly focus on anything. Well, I've had enough of that. I will not let this bring me down any longer. I have my goals and I won't let my parents' opinions that I shouldn't do them stop me any longer. I live my life my own way, and I still have no idea what I'm doing that makes her think I am so sinful and unrighteous. But I don't care anymore. I know I'm a good person and I'm not doing anything wrong. I will not beat myself up again. I will not hate myself anymore. 

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