Introspection time

I've delved back into personality theory fake-science and finally figured out my whole enneagram trifix. I may or may not have involved Claude AI in this discussion because the internet wasn't helping. Yep. I knew my core type as 4w5 instantly. But the rest? It took me years. I initially tested with a 7w6 -head fix (yep...LOL), and thought for years that maybe it was accurate because

1) I can be silly? 

2) I have a LOT of pursuits compared to the average person

3) I am vaguely introverted-7ish at amusement parks if I am with an energetic group. I get along decently well with 7s overall. 

4) I have generalized anxiety disorder (w6...????)

But no. That's SUPER counterintuitive for me. It was obvious all along. A 5-head fix can still have an anxiety disorder, and a 5-head fix can still be somewhat polymathic, especially in the 541 tritype. I am constantly screaming MASTERY. This is competency. 

My love for theme parks and roller coasters is from the SX seeking intensity. The humor and circlejerking on Reddit is generally either from that SX or aux-Ne. 

451 is still double-idealist and experiences a lot of frustration. It can also still be a very cautious type -- I am one of the most cautious people I know. I create backups to my backups. 

Liking Disney is just a thing with any 4, 7, or 9. 

My oscillation from LIFE IS SUFFERING -> I LOVE EVERYTHING is more due to sx aligning with my passions, and 4 just feeling ALL THE EMOTIONS. 

So yeah. 

Full type: INFP 451 4w5 5w4 1w2 sx/sp RLOAI RLoa[I]. So I'm 451, the Scholar, aka the Researcher. 

Yeah, that stack is usually paired with INFJ, but I don't have an ounce of Fe in my body. I am also the poster child with aux-Ne when I randomly get super goofy after not speaking to anyone outside of my immediate circle for like 6 months. 

PDB's UX is cancer BUT that 451 thread is the most me thing I've seen. Ngl. A very good description of who I am. 

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