Ravings of an Undead Cheese Minion

I'm tired.  Could just be the lack of caffeine today though. But I've been running myself ragged, flailing about trying to get a remote position where I don't have to work on the weekends.  And it's wicked. It's not fun. I have hardly gotten any positive responses. I did redo my resume, a little bit. But I'm frustrated. It's hard not to feel envious when LinkedIn says "congratulate Your Mom for 5 years at Random Company!"  I wish I could be at a company for even just 2 years... I've been doing my summer activities as usual, but have struggled to remain present. My workouts have been consistent, but my interview prep isn't (I keep applying and then not interview prepping because it's so hard to even get a response, which is bad). I haven't worked enough on my art, writing, or personal coding projects, or engineering studies, which is dumb because that's a huge part of the reason why I'm trying to get better work-life balance

Randy Lake outsourcing to cheaper Canadian work, causing mass layoffs at DreamWorks  Abbott discontinuing Zone Bars When I actually have a platform I am going to slam them all

Why did they get rid of Zone Perfect bars? I had no idea and didn't realize it until my Target ran out completely. I am pretty pissed about this. I usually ate 2-3 of these a day. I have to switch to Think bars now, which aren't as good.  There has been no good explanation from them about this. I guess don't rely on a company for a staple of your diet. Lmao. I would have stockpiled a crapload of chocolate chip cookie dough if I knew. Maybe I will find some online but I doubt it.  So all I can say now is: 🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 

Thanks, Houdini by Eminem. I finally snapped into awareness at the gym -- maybe 30 minutes in -- and felt motivated again. I came in with very little will to live lol.  If I had continued to digitally paint while in school, even when it got busy, I would have a Patreon right now.  If I had stuck with the 1-2 hours of 3D art per day that I did while applying for CS-Anim, I'd have a portfolio and reel to be able to apply to a wider variety of art positions.  If I had pushed myself to contribute more to open-source software and write my own apps and games earlier, I could have that on my resume right now.  If I had been more consistent with writing my novels throughout grad school, I could be submitting to publishers right now.  If I had started my thesis immediately upon entering grad school, I could have had journal publications by now, which might've given me a leg-up when trying to get back into Adobe Research.  If I had done CAD and gotten certified as planned while presiding

I want out of my company.  I liked the job well enough at first, until they started the stupid Sunday night work from 7 pm to midnight and on-call, 3 months in. No way out of it and no alternatives. It made me miserable, and now I don't even want to work on a normal day. All the joy got sucked out of it. It ruined my peaceful weekend schedule. Or rather, now half of my summer weekends will be ruined.  I've been flailing trying to get out of here within the next few weeks, but I need another job before I can do that. And I can't get one. Only one has gotten back to me without a rejection, and it's a temporary contract position. Everything else is straight up rejection, including Adobe despite my referral, and a fantastic opportunity at Edmunds. Rejected without a single interview. My lack of React experience is killing me with web dev, but how was I supposed to know that would become the new "thing" instead of Angular which I actually have experience with? My r

"Even when I close my eyes, I'll never recreate the time that flies. The consequence is hanging there  The sky will fall but I don't care" - Emilie Autumn

just like that Gorillaz song says.  I will build up savings, for once. I will publish my novels and comics. I will get back into fan fiction. I'll find a job that's better than this one. I will move.  I will re-establish my daily art habit. Well, it's still there, but not as good as it was at DreamWorks. I will also establish a daily writing habit. Other pursuits, same thing. Sometimes I sound like a broken record on this blog, but hey, that's why I have absolutely zero standards for it. I write whatever I feel like. And currently I feel exhausted and should probably go to bed.  I have to work this Sunday night. I'm dreading it. It's going to be hell. I am so tired of consistently getting these supposedly 9-5 office jobs that make me work nights and weekends. I need work-life balance in order to flourish. Otherwise, how will I play music, write stories, make art, get lost in other worlds? I won't do it slaving for someone else's dream. I am so enthusiast