How do I get out?

I want out of my company. 

I liked the job well enough at first, until they started the stupid Sunday night work from 7 pm to midnight and on-call, 3 months in. No way out of it and no alternatives. It made me miserable, and now I don't even want to work on a normal day. All the joy got sucked out of it. It ruined my peaceful weekend schedule. Or rather, now half of my summer weekends will be ruined. 

I've been flailing trying to get out of here within the next few weeks, but I need another job before I can do that. And I can't get one. Only one has gotten back to me without a rejection, and it's a temporary contract position. Everything else is straight up rejection, including Adobe despite my referral, and a fantastic opportunity at Edmunds. Rejected without a single interview.

My lack of React experience is killing me with web dev, but how was I supposed to know that would become the new "thing" instead of Angular which I actually have experience with? My resume in general is too graphics-focused. But I can't get graphics jobs either. And I'm stuck applying for fully remote because I want to move to California but can't yet and I'm SO TIRED of constantly being forced to switch jobs. 

HOW do people stay at a company for 5 years? HOW?! I want that so badly. I want a company I can STAY at, that won't lay me off, and that lets me work 9 to 5 only. 

I COULD just set aside a year to upskill. And I want to. But I refuse to sacrifice Sunday after Sunday because my company only cares about its clients, not its employees. I need to get out NOW. 

This is a living hell. I just want to spend time outdoors as well as time working on what I love now that school is over. And I have to deal with constant rejection instead. I hate every second of it. But every time someone says "the deployment this weekend" or "when we work this Sunday night" I want to scream. 

I have no idea what to do. My messages to my contacts are largely ignored and I'm spamming into the void again. I want out, and I'd do almost anything to get out. But I'm stuck. 

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