my future is coming on

just like that Gorillaz song says. 

I will build up savings, for once. I will publish my novels and comics. I will get back into fan fiction. I'll find a job that's better than this one. I will move. 

I will re-establish my daily art habit. Well, it's still there, but not as good as it was at DreamWorks. I will also establish a daily writing habit. Other pursuits, same thing. Sometimes I sound like a broken record on this blog, but hey, that's why I have absolutely zero standards for it. I write whatever I feel like. And currently I feel exhausted and should probably go to bed. 

I have to work this Sunday night. I'm dreading it. It's going to be hell. I am so tired of consistently getting these supposedly 9-5 office jobs that make me work nights and weekends. I need work-life balance in order to flourish. Otherwise, how will I play music, write stories, make art, get lost in other worlds? I won't do it slaving for someone else's dream. I am so enthusiastic about my work until it starts encroaching on everything else...and then all the motivation dies. 

That's the problem with this world, all magic dies. 

But it doesn't matter. I'm working on my craft anyway and I'll get out of here. Nothing can stop me now. With persistence, success is an inevitability. I will believe that. I have no other choice. 

I'm useless, but not for long. 

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