Ravings of an Undead Cheese Minion

In 1.5 hours.  I'm going to bed now but I'm sure the fireworks will wake me up.  "This will be the day we've waited for."

candlewax on her back blood pools below as the evening shadows dance I wander here below lost in the rhythm of fireglow burning holes in the dust as I pace --  my art that paints my hate for this place faint smoke rises as candles glow hollowed-out drumbeats on empty skulls we are the ones who forsook it all amidst the thorns, we chose to fall and so we burn the candles atop her back the gray moon topples as the stars turn black (let it all turn black, let it all turn black) why did you snuff out my stars? my moon and Venus, Saturn, Mars I wanted to watch them fall from the sky As they were mine, the day my light died. When these skulls once lived, what made them scream? Their thoughts, their hopes, opinions, dreams? We are the ones who made them die In these sputtering flames that mock the night sky.  we are the ones who forsook it all amidst the thorns, we chose to fall and so we burn the candles atop her back the gray moon topples as the stars turn black (let it all turn bl...

I was always using bodyspace to track my lifts. But then I found this thing (Liftoff) Do you see this elephant? The tiny little elephant with a sweatband? It's so cute. Serotonin temporarily restored. This little guy will get me progressing in the gym. 

  I've been doubted today again. This happens a lot when I visit home. 

NYR aren't finished yet, but I have a loose list of deliverables and challenges. I didn't realize advent of code ended on Christmas (lol, should've been obvious based on the name) so I flubbed that.  My main pain points are: Not getting to bed on time Running out of time for 3d art Running out of time for coding projects Running out of time for engineering studies 3d art will be fixed if I do at least 30 mins at the end of my art studies. I need to figure out code/eng because there's a lot of physics and math to do. Then if I don't game any later than 30 mins before my cutoff time for bed, I'll get to bed basically on time. 

Didn't realize my Gardevoir's like 50 power move would nuke it Legit just randomly stumbled on a shiny of one of my favorite pokemon and killed it I really don't have much going for me right now. 

I watch some Nick Bare videos from time to time. One of them really stuck with me because it helped me to understand something that didn't make sense to me for most of my life until now.  I never understood what people meant when they said "you have to make time ." Like, what does that even mean?  Turns out, it just means scheduling in advance and committing to what you've scheduled. That's it.  Instead of reactive planning, where you try to "fit everything in" and then suddenly it's the end of the day and you haven't done half of the stuff you wanted to.  Yesterday I 100% ran out of time. I ended up working late due to being stuck on a major bug (and figured I could use that to leave early on Thursday anyway). That was worth it I feel, even though it is very rare for me, but then I got completely thrown off the rest of the day. Because I did not make time for everything.  So, how am I going to do that today? I also have to make up for the sessio...

DSA I'll be studying: Double linked lists  Circular linked lists  Challenges I'll be doing: Advent of Code  Coding and IT concepts I'll be reviewing: Kaggle (ML), Bandit Wargames (level 12-13), C++ Operating systems (Google IT) Excel operations Shader programming Python in Maya Fast.ai lesson 1 Coding projects I'll be working on: Foam Fraction Flow (plus email professor) Fortune Quest Arduino blinking lights  Freelancing: my dad's site Portfolio site revamp Open source -- might start with Krita.  Art concepts I will be reviewing: Virtual cameras Grid method  Anime hairstyles Pencils Lines Drawabox 250 boxes  Art projects I will be working on: Webcomic character designs  Finizen fan art 3d ornament  Writing projects I will be working on: Eternisummer: finish chapter 8  WTS (collaborative project): finish chapter 1 HGHL: outlining Engineering, math, and physics: Mapping shapes -- finish up.  Intro to EE week 5 PLC I review everything ...

Some is to be expected with ramping up workout intensity, but I'm going to have to start separating my creation and study block sessions with walks and stretches. It's been hurting the past few days.  Something like Creation: art, writing, music, Duolingo  Take a 10-15 minute walk or roll out Studies: technical stuff  10-15 minutes movement Games and game dev I think it's the only sustainable way of progressing if I'm going to stick to this intense schedule. In the summer, the first walk will instead be a water park session instead so it will be a lot longer. Just anything to get moving without jacking up the back. 

Wed is my most intense day of the week. Here's what it looks like: 70 mins lifting legs (doubles as a warmup for the run): quads, hams, glutes, calves, abductors, adductors 2x sets of: Bodyweight squats Thigh abductor machine Thigh adductor machine Seated leg press  Seated calf press Lying leg curls Leg extensions Seated leg curl Standing leg curl Hack squats Bulgarian split squats Dumbbell lunges Dumbbell calf raise Flutter kicks Dumbbell squats Dumbbell seated one-leg calf raise Hip circles Standing barbell calf raises Clams Side-lying leg lifts Glute kickbacks 6.25 mile run: 1 mile tempo 1 mile fartlek 1 mile hills, slopes, and stairs 1 mile intervals (400m with 400m rest) 1 mile accelerations (get faster every 400m) 1.25 mile cooldown  Balance board Yes. Yes it does hurt. :D My 5k split today was 21:41 which means I should be able to race a lot faster than that :) I've thought about adding in one-leg standing  calf raises but idk. Kinda don't want to amp up the liftin...

I did well in Data Structures & Algorithms. I also did well in Algorithm Analysis. In fact, I aced all my C++ classes. BYU used to start you out with C++, with the idea being that other languages would feel much easier after that (they don't do that anymore, IIRC they start you with Python).  And they were right. It worked well.  Unfortunately, I haven't been caught up on my C++ lately, despite being a "graphics guy". Almost all my stuff was in C# and Python. And that was what my interview was supposed to be about yesterday, C# just like the first round that I cleared easily, but for some reason, it was in C++. I got destroyed because I completely forgot the basics of pointers and memory management (again, from classes that I once aced). They also drilled extremely deeply about the 2 projects I had forgotten most about: my Adobe popup card project, and my DreamWorks pipeline porting project (the latter of which I did while in the grips of despair because I was los...

Triple pepperoni nooooo it looks so good lol 😭 I LOVE Marco's pizza but I already derailed my cut for 2 weeks (sick + holiday, I always overeat when I'm sick) and I need it done before I go home for Christmas or else I'm never going to lean bulk and actually gain muscle.  This had better still be there when I'm done lol. I generally can't even do pizzas this big on Saturdays because I'll inevitably end up eating the rest later in the week and blowing my budgets. Too much is at stake right now.   

I may hate the winter, but I've got a good routine going now.  1. Lift weights, full body.  2. Long run of 14-16 miles.  3. Get ready for the day. Breakfast, shower, maybe do the hot tub outdoors.  4. Artistic: Languages, music, digital art, reading, writing. ~2h.  5. Lunch and walk at the park.   6. Technical: Coding/IT, engineering, games/game dev. ~1.5-2h 7. Rec center water slides and hot tub -- my theme park activity. Then shower back at home.  8. Dinner with friends 9. Gaming, watch a show or movie, meditate, stretches and injury prevention, bed.  When you get a good routine, guard it with your life. No interruptions tolerated without significant advance warning, or absolute emergencies. 

It highlighted a treasure chest for me to click on. I did, thinking that it was another lesson or reward, and it forced me to start a Super trial with no way of opting out.  I didn't want to try a Super trial until my finances were more stable (I make decent money atm, just suck at managing it and my roommate owes me about $8000 in overdue rent payments) and I haven't had time to use the premium features since I only use Duolingo for 10-15 mins a day for my spanish, japanese, and Norwegian. So this is kind of dumb. Sure, the trial is free but I'm not gonna get the use out of it that I want. I wanted to wait until I was close to actually wanting to pay, though admittedly I have major subscription fatigue right now.  Prob gonna just use Duo as a daily warmup and switch over to Dreaming Spanish to attack that language first.  I did not ask for this yet you homicidal owl 

I'm going to try and complete at least 1 challenge. I'll just use Java since I'm the most familiar with it. Though sometimes I want to do C++.  My yearly challenges are usually: July: Art Fight October: Drawtober November: Rough Draft Challenge (formerly NaNo) -- didn't do it this year BUT fixed my routines up which is huge December: Advent of Code Also I'm using Habitica and WOW this app has made me significantly more on TRACK. Why didn't I start this earlier? Well, I think my brain went "it's probably paid lol" and thus I never looked into it. NOPE, it's open source and free! Break was good. Man I love Santa Barbara. Especially the zoo.  Currently running on Bucked Up and spite. Will need to sleep early tonight, or else I'll be soup tomorrow.