Ravings of an Undead Cheese Minion

I always put it off until the last possible second (usually the Saturday before my race, so just a week out) I can't stay within my calorie goals because I burn so little -- blast right past them  And my Apple Watch Ultra fitness face is describing my activity as "below" average with a HUGE dip almost to the bottom Feelsbadman oh well CARB LOAD CARB LOAB CARRRRRRRBS And I am once again reminding the world that keto sucks and is pseudoscientific BS and it's miserable because you can't eat Texas toast CARBS CARBS CAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRBS

people always ask me this and I never know how to respond without info-dumping. so I end up mumbling something about individuation and differentiation of the self, which sounds a lot smarter than it actually is. or, I say "just listen to Ringfinger by NIN and you'll understand". if someone asks about the black and gold, I just say that they were my high school colors. which is true, and high school was fine, but I'm not nostalgic for it or anything.  The people were the best part of high school. XC/Track was also nice. Band, well, I love the clarinet but band kinda sucked. I had some good teachers. other than that, meh. High school is a prison designed to keep you out of the Responsible Adults' (TM) hair. It sucks and no one actually wants to be there. It's better than middle school though.  I don't think women get questions about their rings very much, but men do for some reason... ¿un doble estándar?  so here is the jewelry lore.  part a, rings: 1. Oura ...

Do you feel love?  I know I don't  With no one to hold Do you feel love, love, love? link Obsessed with this song lately. 

8 PM on a Sunday, working, no defined end point. Could be done in 20 minutes, could be in 4 hours. Still bugs being found. No CI/CD. No blue-green deployments. No QA. No automated tests. Nothing. Writing code in a language with no else-if statements, no classes, no abstraction, no dependency injection, no separation of concerns, no DRY, code duplication everywhere by design, certain library functions not allowing anything other than hardcoded strings (i.e. can't use a variable). It doesn't even feel like software engineering. It feels like some weird form of torture. My back hurts. We've been working every 2-4 Sundays for the past 18 months.  And we have to work again in 12 hours! Can't be late or else!  And we don't get to get off early anymore as thanks for working the weekend, either.  Arcade is not a programming language. It is a torture chamber.  We may not have to deploy for an entire month  before working a Saturday (oh boy) for a major prod upgrade which...

The idea of no life after death is actually pretty terrifying to me? So I'll always be invested in some form of theism.  My brother is very atheist. He doesn't get this perspective at all. I'd rather believe in magic than stare at the ceiling every night with a deep-seated fear of infinite nothingness and black. And it feels right to me, too, that we were meant for far more than just this dismal life.  However, my beliefs diverge quite a bit from what they "should" be. For example, I believe all love is eternal, not just heterosexual relationships. I think people -- especially in my current ward -- worry way too much about "sinning" and not enough about the flip side, doing good to others. I think half of Utah, or at least the last few wards I've been in, needs to take a major chill pill. If you seriously think people who whack the walrus aren't going to the top tier of heaven, I've got some bad news for you. If that's true, there are onl...

Well I do. The physics checks out.  And I'll hang my arms every time Cannibal goes into the Lagoon roll over the waterfall, too.  It's the same as the "I don't feel safe on carnival rides because THEY TAKE THEM APART A LOT! AAAA" okay but stop advocating for them to be taken away for those of us who actually understand safety standards?  (Or the "zomg final destination!!!!!!1" crowd when Siren's Curse was opened.) Let me have my Cannibal and Velocicoaster, please. 

It's pretty standard at this point, but let's regroup:  1. Morning COAST studies: Theme park news/communities and research, theme park blogging, mathematics/physics, current PLC or engineering course, current embedded systems course, designing my ultimate theme park resort, zoo research and communities (usually lurking on Zoo Chat; I need to sign up there).  2. LIFTING (stretching/mobility if rest day) 3. RUNNING: baseline 8 miles (take a walk if rest day) 4. Morning CYBER studies: Ethical Hacking University, Hack Forums, General practical/hands-on hardware studies (Dell Certs/PC upgrades), CompTIA Certs, Flipper Zero, Ethical Hacking book / Homelabbing 5. Language studies 6. Musical instruments: Clarinet, piano, voice  7. ART studies: Drawing, 2D digital, 3D digital  8. READING and WRITING 9. Imagination . If I need a break, I take it here, and go out for a theme park activity (water slides, Cornbelly's, etc. if midweek. Lagoon is more likely if it's a weekend or cl...