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Still, we rot.

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I got into a car accident today. A car came flying through my apartment complex and hit me on the driver's side, busting my bumper. It was fairly minor, the claim is processing and mostly I'm just going to have to replace the bumper. However, it ruined my lunch period and all of my evening tasks that I was so determined to tackle. It's at the risk of throwing off tomorrow morning, too. That morning, I had been really excited when I saw that a software engineering position opened up at DreamWorks. I applied and filled out the form explaining my excitement and goal to spend the rest of my career there. I thought for sure I'd get an interview since I've worked there full time. The car accident happened a few hours later.  And then I had a bunch of stomach issues in the afternoon. I think I have developed something worse than just generic lactose intolerance.  The rejection email from DreamWorks came just a few hours after the car accident. Not even an interview, nothin...

Experiment: engineering as last block?

At first, gaming was supposed to be my last block of the night. But a lot of the times, gaming wakes me up. As much as I love math, engineering, and physics, it's also a good way to tire out my brain. And gaming is a natural segue from coding.  For coding: I start with my coding warmups (overflow from right before work), then move into Foam Fraction Flow and physics sims, then do my coding "workout" which is a study (via courses, books, and projects) of a specific area of interest, then work on my biggest priority project and course.  After that, freelance work or open source, then I move to game development. Then gaming as a mandatory reward (you've got to play lots of games if you want to develop them well).  Then that will give me some energy to slide into engineering, which in turn will sap my energy again. Then my wind-down routine: nightly planning, PT with a show, and get ready for bed.  My technical block is always the last one of each day right now, before m...

LOOK AT IT

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  LOOK AT THE LITTLE BLUE ELEPHANT AND HIS LITTLE GREEN SWEATBAND HE IS CHEERING FOR YOU BECAUSE YOU LIFTED WEIGHTS LOOK AT IT LOOK AT IT I WANT ALL OF YOU TO LOOK AT IT!

2025 NYR: First check-in

It's a bit early, but let's evaluate how the New Year's Resolutions are going. Mainly, I resolved to follow my daily practice blocks and go well beyond the 2-minute rule whenever possible (i.e. it needs to be the default -- 2-minute rule by itself should only apply on really tight days or true vacation days where I'm doing something like an all-day hike). Additionally, I constructed a list of deliverables to be completed (ex: all of Khan Academy math and physics, new demo reel, etc.). And finally, I'd like to start monetizing my projects.  Resolutions: Hit all daily blocks  beyond the 2-minute rule as a default.  (Hit time targets) Complete the deliverable list  that I have on Notion.  Start monetizing my projects, and get an LLC underway.  Make at least 130K.  It's been a weird week. I have had to work from 7 AM to 3 PM since I'm in California and I haven't been able to get up at 4 AM because me using the weight set would wake up my parents.  Thi...

2025.

In 1.5 hours.  I'm going to bed now but I'm sure the fireworks will wake me up.  "This will be the day we've waited for."

pyres (or, I write the weirdest poems when debugging)

candlewax on her back blood pools below as the evening shadows dance I wander here below lost in the rhythm of fireglow burning holes in the dust as I pace --  my art that paints my hate for this place faint smoke rises as candles glow hollowed-out drumbeats on empty skulls we are the ones who forsook it all amidst the thorns, we chose to fall and so we burn the candles atop her back the gray moon topples as the stars turn black (let it all turn black, let it all turn black) why did you snuff out my stars? my moon and Venus, Saturn, Mars I wanted to watch them fall from the sky As they were mine, the day my light died. When these skulls once lived, what made them scream? Their thoughts, their hopes, opinions, dreams? We are the ones who made them die In these sputtering flames that mock the night sky.  we are the ones who forsook it all amidst the thorns, we chose to fall and so we burn the candles atop her back the gray moon topples as the stars turn black (let it all turn bl...

oh no new serotonin source just dropped

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I was always using bodyspace to track my lifts. But then I found this thing (Liftoff) Do you see this elephant? The tiny little elephant with a sweatband? It's so cute. Serotonin temporarily restored. This little guy will get me progressing in the gym.