“I never look back, darling, it distracts from the now.”

This is something I’m trying to live by. This past weekend, my IT lab took me so long that I didn’t do anything else, other than exercise, church, grocery shopping, and watching a grand total of one (1) episode of Rick and Morty from season 4. No art, no writing, no Cracking the Coding Interview, no water slides. I spent all day Friday, Saturday, and Sunday on this lab. Now I love pentesting, but that lab should NOT have taken that long. I was just having a ton of issues with VMWare — again. Honestly I didn’t even fix all of them but was able to hobble through and get it “good enough” to hopefully get most or all of the points, but WOW my knowledge of networking is CRAP. To get the lab done, I tossed aside a bunch of other really important things, which I hate doing, and only now just finished the project. I am beyond exhausted, and my back hurts. I have a fantastic gaming chair, but when you sit for way too long it somewhat nullifies the effect. And it makes running injuries worse because the longer you sit the worse your posture gets. I’m worried about the half-marathon I have coming up — my leg developed yet another injury a few weeks ago right when I was finally back to 10-mile long runs, and this one causes me to wake up at 3 AM in pain and take a bunch of ibuprofen to fall back asleep. 

Also, I have just always been terrible at anything that involves configuration files. 

It sucks. All that time I could’ve spent resting if I had just learned to work and debug more efficiently. On the bright side, I completely forgot it was Valentine’s Day until I saw the date on this post, and am going to spend the rest of the evening trying to forget that fact once again. 

But that’s one thing we learn from Edna. She just keeps moving forward. She learns from the past — she used to make super suits with capes, after all, which led to a lot of deaths, and there’s no way that wasn’t a challenge for her. But she does not dwell on this and just keeps pressing forward. And so that’s what I’ll do — polish my schedule tomorrow, tie up loose ends, and keep going. No need to dwell on lost time, because it takes away from optimizing the time we have now. Obsessive iteration, and failing forward — every second of the day is an opportunity to reset everything and do even better. 

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