Hoppers was so good but

I don't know whether I'm determined to succeed or even more deflated than before. Somehow, it's both. I'm going to master 3d art and 3d programming and yet also I'm thinking about Kittie and Avatar. 

I thought I found what I always wanted - bear with me. 

The blood is on your hands. 

Like I hate seeing the credits and going "I understand each of these departments. I want to be on this. I NEED to be on this." I would've just stayed there forever. I don't need the ladder. I don't WANT the ladder. I don't care. I just want to master art and code. 

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